I'm starting to miss him. I'm starting to feel a lot of things. Like stupid, for one. "You the one that started this 'test'." I rolled my eyes, chucking a pillow at Emily. She got lucky she dodged it. "Dani, just forget this whole thing and talk to him--." "No!" I struck, frustrated. "I need to be able to know that I'm still apart of his life, somehow! If I'm worth it, he'll try hard." I folded my arms, puffing. "Dani--." "Dani!" We looked at each other curiously, then ran downstairs. Ariana met me at the stairs with roses in her hand. "I don't know what he did, but...These are for you." She smirked, handing me the roses, walked away. "There's a note." I mumbled, pulling it out. 'Each rose for all the times I've told you you're beautiful.' Dee smirked, nudging me. "Could the sign be anymore clearer?" She moved from behind me and headed to the kitchen. "I told you so." Emily bounced off the steps, following Dee into the kitchen.
I walked over to the large bay windows, moving the curtain. His car was gone. "...That boy." I shook my head, debating whether to throw them away or not. "You have forgiven him." I shook my head 'no', asking mom for a vase. It was just Ariana, Gina, Kasandra, Dee, and Emily with me today. Dad was on duty and the rest were at work. "But he gave you roses. Lots of them." "And I appreciate them, I do...I just think roses aren't enough." I set them in a vase, carefully placing them. "Tell me you're not gonna have him beggin'." Kasandra dreaded seeing the way he did the first time we broke up. New Years was the hardest day of my life. And it was my birthday. "If he really wants me back, he will..He knows I just won't run back to him; not after that whole Selena thing.." Just thinking about it made me miss him. "This boy...You do not wish him happy." My mom said, in her broken accent. It was fairly the opposite, "I do want him happy; I want him to understand, though." I was just complicated to explain.
"I do not understand you girls, today." She picked AJ up from his highchair, after feeding him. Okay, so she just wouldn't understand then, I don't need her to.
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Ding-Dong! I held Liliana on my hip. AJ held my hand, "Coming!" I walked with them to the door, Justin was right outside. This scenario seemed all too familiar to me. "You're back." He smirked, then bent down to pick up AJ. "Hey little man." AJ just looked at him; but since he was still learning words, "uh." was all he said. "You might as well come in." I opened the door wide enough to let him in. "Justin held AJ on his hip, following me to den. I put Liliana in her play pin. "I see you got the flowers." Mom decided to put the vase in the den. "The card was a nice touch." I watched him put AJ down, who started walking over to the play pin. I wonder what him and my niece talk about...they always seem to have a conversation..."Dani...I want to spend some time with you, you know. Before I leave again." I sighed, but I knew that it'd come to that. "I don't know, Justin...Part of this game was for me to not talk to you, but even that, you make impossible." He laughed. "Because I think this thing is stupid. But I'm willing to do it all, just for you--." "Why just for me, Justin?" Why was he sticking around?
"Because I love you." He grabbed my hand, I pulled it back. Love wasn't enough. Just saying it, wasn't enough. I wanted to feel it, again. And right now, I'm just not. "Saying it and feeling it, are two different things, Justin." I got up from the couch and walked over to the play pin. "I do feel it, Daniella, do you?" Now we''re getting defensive. "Honestly," I straightened up, after picking up Liliana, "No. I don't anymore. I want that feeling again, with you, but I don't feel it...And I miss that. Then again, you seem pretty content without me, so why should you? I picked up AJ on my other hip and headed upstairs. And who else, but the infamous Justin, was right behind me. "That's bull and you know it." The last thing I needed was a fight. "I love you, I'm in love with you--." "And you think that sending me flowers and, and all this changes anything? Justin, I asked of you, one thing, just one thing. To prove to me that you loved me. I haven't seen it once." I took Liliana and AJ to his room, for their nap.
"Dang, Dani, you're not even being fair! You're not even letting me try!" I sighed, putting them down for their nap. Once I left the room, he followed. "And just how will you do it, then, hm? You don't even have time for me--." "That's not true. All this time, I've been here." I clicked an app on my phone, showing him the twitter Selena had. "She's coming to Atlanta, for you, you! It seems you got time for her, but not me; work, I can deal with, fans, I can deal with. But another woman? Justin, that's just too much. It's too much!" I stormed passed him and headed to my room. "Get out." He closed the door behind him. "My love is for you. It has always been for you; since we were fourteen!" I looked out to the window, only to be confronted by raindrops. "Has it? Prove it. Show me. " I turned around, tears welled. "Do you really love me, or am I just in the way?"
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