Thread: These Barriers of Yours I'm Tearing Down. Dont Stop Me..

INTRO
Kasey

I never was like this before. Before, i was friendly. Before I had friends-- a many. Before, I wasnt exactly popular but everyone knew me. Before I let people in.

But then Someone came in my life. He destroyed me. He told me he loved me, and kissed me, he told me all the words I so desperately needed to hear. And just like that, he was gone. In and out of my life. In and out of my heart. All in less than 2 months.


See it's kind of funny how teenage love works sometimes. You'll fall. They tell you what you so desperately wanna hear. They tell you you're really beautiful. they tell you that you're the only girl.
And oh do you fall for their trap. But they pretend they fake around with your heart. And when they're done, or just have lost interest in this little "hobby" they picked up. Or this fun they're having, they're gone so fast. And they leave you confused. Angry, and most of all -- Alone.

I'm now not the girl i used to be. I'm simply a bitter angry girl. I dont let anyone in.
And that's just the way its going to be.

Don't try. Cause Im not falling again. How can I fall, if I dont even give myself space to Listen. To pay Attention?

No. Im done with games. I do what I have to. Nothing more.

how do you guys like it? Please Comment. Let me know.

So. I'm holding auditions for this story.
I will put out the following roles, i would like to be filled. If you want to be a part of this story, let me know what role you would like.
PARTS AVAILABLE

Kasey's Friend-This is the only friend Kasey hs, and the only reason she has her is because they grew up together. This is one of the more intense roles.

Student that tries to befriend Kasey- this role is going to be played throught out the story.

Justin's girlfriend- This explains all. She will be out through the story.

The Treasured Girls- A posee. They are the most poular girls in school, the're are 3 of them

PLEASE FILL OUT
Name:
Age:
What part you wish to play and why:
Basic Appearance overview of you:
details about yourself:
Notes about you:
Anything else you thing I should know:


THANKS AND GOOD LUCK!!!

Name:decklen
Age:14
What part you wish to play and why:justin's girlfriend because ... he's pretty .. hahaha jk because
Basic Appearance overview of you:
it's fun to imagine details about yourself:5'5 , hourglass figure, skater chick, plays softball , golden hair, hazel/greenish eyes , equal torso and legs ,
Notes about you:i go crazy for tangerines and sour patch kids, im ALWAYS there for someone if they need it, ill always be there for anyone .. even if they hate me, i TOTALLY believe everything should be done through peace
Anything else you thing I should know:uuummmm.... i have depression , and insomnia, i dont really know if u needed to know that but yeah, oh and im really random hahah

Name: Whitney
Age: 16
What part you wish to play and why: Casey's best friend or who tries to befriend her
Basic Appearance overview of you: 5 foot 1 and a half inch. light-meduim brown hair. Green/Blue/orange eyes(its a mis of the colors)
details about yourself: I LOVE soccer and dance(ballet and jazz) I'm a huge reader. I hate math and science. I'm a chocoholic and a hot cheetosaholic, I love history. I love all things Disney, I loce Capri Suns
Notes about you: I am an amazing listener and I have been known to give great advice
Anything else you thing I should know: I'm quiet until I get to know you then I get hyper!

Name: Natasha
Age: 14
What part you wish to play and why: Kasey's Friend or the student who tries to befriend her. I wanna be there for her!!!! She looks like she needs a friend
Basic Appearance overview of you: Asian, tanned, dark brown eyes, my eyes are NOT super tiny, 5' 3", curvy, shoulderlength dark brown hair
Notes about you: I love playing sports (VOLLEYBALL!!!), I can be one of the guys , my random moments r legendary, i'm a good balance of girl and dude, I love drawing, reading, I am LOUD- even without realizing it, i hate seeing people being sad so i try to make them feel better, I dont really get loud until I'm comfortable around someone.
Anything else you thing I should know: Uhhhh..... I can dance to a full SNSD song. Kinda random and u probably dont kno who they are. But it's something isn't it??!! I think they're so pretty.....

Originally Posted by Pray<3

Name: Whitney
Age: 16
What part you wish to play and why: Casey's best friend or who tries to befriend her
Basic Appearance overview of you: 5 foot 1 and a half inch. light-meduim brown hair. Green/Blue/orange eyes(its a mis of the colors)
details about yourself: I LOVE soccer and dance(ballet and jazz) I'm a huge reader. I hate math and science. I'm a chocoholic and a hot cheetosaholic, I love history. I love all things Disney, I loce Capri Suns
Notes about you: I am an amazing listener and I have been known to give great advice
Anything else you thing I should know: I'm quiet until I get to know you then I get hyper!

MY WORD!!!! You r like my exaxt twin!!! Lol

Hey hey so audtions went well. There might be some other parts to be filled later on, so I will have a seperate auditin for those . Anyways, for the roles of yesterday here are following winners of each:
for the part of Kasey's best bud: whitney !
lol
for the part of the student who tries to befriend her: Natasha!
for the part of justins gf: Decklen!

Okay gyz those are the main roles for now!
ps I still am holding out audiitions for the treasured girls!!
Soo pllz apply! Lol
Congrats guyz!

Thank u Can't wait to read it!! <3

Kasey

I can still remember the day, when I first met him. The one who broke me. The day that I was still a nice girl. The girl who let people in.
His name was Caleb.

It was a warm sunny day. Me and my best friend, Whitney, were at the beach just chilling, having fun.

We were both all giggly, and red from a hilarious joke and you know how that is. You just cant stop.

So there we were.

Whitney was, and still is, the shorter one of us two. Her medium light brown hair was loosely hanging down her back. She was a pretty skinny girl with a great body. Very well fit, even though she consumed chocolate by the buttload.
She had this really cute bikini on, one with stars and it definately showed off her great tan. She had decently big eyes. They are mixed between green blue and orange. She was and still is such a pretty girl, and then when I met him I had to wonder why he had picked me.



I had blue eyes, and light brown hair. It was pretty long running down to about my waist. I wasnt all that special. No one liked me like that. They always loved Whitney.

So there we are, two normal teenage girls. Were laughing our heads off, and suddenly there he was. He stood right in front of me, smiling with a million dollar smile.

"Hey." He said, and I remember thinking that maybe he was talking to her.

Hey was very cute. He had short black hair, and true blue eyes, that sapphire color. He had a small birth mark by his nose, and light freckles that actually looked good. He had a well built body, a six
pack, biceps, you know the body that makes girls swoon.?

Well that kind.
He was shirtless, and very tan and I kept thinking, HES SO HOT!
but I had a feeling he had come for Whitney.

He sat down next to me and smiled again.

"Im Caleb."

He streched out his hand and shook it.

"Kasey." I said, quite justified.
Later he just kept staring and talking and I coulnt believe he wanted me. Of all people. Me.

Whitney elbowed my side amd she winked at me.
i just blushed like a freak.

I excused myself and went to the bathroom. On my way passed her, I whispered,

"Whitney, TALK!! Ask him questions. Just make sure he doesnt leave!"
I said pleadingly.
she winked and smirked and told me she would, and that my face was so red.

I just rolled my eyes and ran across the sand, to the bathrooms.



As I returned, Caleb said he really had to go.
I sighed.
but ever so quickly he grabbed my hand wrote his number, and whispered to me that he would see me later and that we should hang out Saturday night. Then he planted a soft kiss on my cheek and ran off, across the sand to his friends who had been waiting, watching. Just ahead.

I remember how much me and Whitney squealed as we both shared a chocolate bar.


"Aww, im so happy for you, Kase! Hes so cute, and hes really sweet! When you left I asked him what was the deal. Like why did he show up all of the sudden. And he told, he had been watching you from a distance for a while. He said you were really beautiful and your smile drove him crazy so he had to talk to you!"

"wow! He said that??!?!"
I practically yelled.

Whitney just laughed and nodded her head.


***

After that day, me and Caleb talked non stop. We texted eachother, called eachother and went on dates. We both learned, that he lived a few houses down from me and were constantly together.
Then one day, he asked if Id be his girlfriend, and as stupid as I was, so blinded by what thought was love, I said yes. So for 2 months we were an item. He kissed me, and told me I was beautiful. He told me he loved me and I said it back.
Everthing was just fine, til one day it wasnt.

I was sitting there in my room, beside him, when he started to get a little to close. He started to kiss me and and slide his arms around my waist.

This wasnt the only time it had happened either. Multiple times, he did this but I pushed him off. Everytime he got really mad.

And everytime, he would storm off, but then be okay the next day.
he would aplogize tell me he loved me, and then say I was so beautiful, only to once again do it all over again.

But that day, it wasnt like all the rest.
This day he went farther, and as usual, he got really mad. But unlike the usual, this time, he stood up, looked me straight in the eye, and screamed:
"If you cant give me what I what, then this relationship is over! You hear me? I've done so much for you, gave so much for you, and you dont give anything back!!"

"I thought you loved me!" I cried, silently.

"I thought so too. But I cant love someone if they dont give me what I want.!"

"But, im not ready!" I said trembling. "and I love you."

"I gave 2 freakin months!! And if you loved me, you would do this for me!"
He was so angry right then, and he pulled back his hand, and slapped me, hard.
my own hand shot up to my face, where the skin was stinging.

"You, are an ungrateful little brat." He, spat out at me

He was about to leave, but I couldnt stand to let him go.

So, I gave him what he wanted.

When everything had ended and he grabbed his stuff to go, he didnt kiss me goodbye. He didnt hug me and tell me he love me.
instead he just walked through the door and drove away.

I didnt hear from hear until 2 weeks later.
he showed up my door, and spoke in matter of fact way.
"Im leaving. Im going away, to somewhere else. Dont look for me, dont come after me. We're done."

And just like that, he was gone. Forever.

Ever since then, this is how I've been. I closed myself off to the world. People wondered what happened but I didnt let them in. The only person I still had was Whitney.
I still had her because i knew very well that she wouldnt leave me alone. But even her, I closed myself off to. She knew only a little more than anyone else did but not much. Because I didnt trust anyone. Not anymore.

***
Ring!
The school bell rings, very loudly.
My head is down, covered by my hood.
Im wearing dark jeans and a dark long sleeve.

I had dyed my hair black, for no reason at all, and got bangs to hide myself.

Lets admit it. I am a freak. But if anything, no one will try and get close to me.

I walk slowly to class, History.
I really dont like that word.
The past is NOT important.

The final bell rings, and just like that, im late.

I walk in, sit down in the back and rest my head on the desk.

Moments later, I get tapped on the back.
I lift my head and I find a girl.
She seems to be a little younger than me, but definately not by much.

My face turns to a frown.
"What?" I say with sharp attitude.
she seems unalarmed by this.

"You okay?" She whispers.

I give her the evil eye and spit out, "Yes I am. Im perfectly fine. LEAVE ME ALONE! You got that?"
she looks at me steadily then turns away. Not saying anything. At all.
Afterwards, I loom around, hovering over everybody else. Its free period.
I walk over to a small secluded spot by the bathrooms. Its dark and all alone.

I plug in my head phones and try to find something to listen to.
As im scrolling, a familiar name shows up. Justin Bieber.

Whitney and I loved him and his music back before I was an angry bitter brat.
I havent listened to him in ages, and I'm not so sure about Whitney.

So for some reason I click on his name, and tune the song that had become automatic.
UP.
But after hearing a bit, I got so angry that I changed to another one. And then another one.
but it was no use. They all had something to do with love.
And soon I found that most everything on my ipod had to do with love.

I pulled the buds out of my ears with sharpness, and violently threw the ipod at the wall in a rage.

I didnt want anything else to do with love. I didnt want anything to do with realtionships.

Then the tears flowed, like a waterfall from my eyes and no one was there to hold me. Because I had a bitter heart. My cold bitter heart.

As I was crying, someone calls out to me .
"Kasey! Are you okay?"
I turn my head up and find the girl.
from earlier.
i want so much to be loved, and really loved. Not just for my body, not just for pretend, but for real.
but I have barriers. I trust no one.
so I get up, throw my backpack over my shoulder and kick my ipod away from me

The girl comes close to me and sees those tears, still streaming so quickly like quick sand. She hugs me tight, but I push her away.

"Im fine! Cant you just leave me alone?!".
My voice is highly cracked and bitter, just like my heart.

I say im fine, but we both know im not.

I quickly run off, and head to the bus station. And when I cant take it anymore, I just sit there and cry.