Thread: Bigger

Originally Posted by autumnmarie212

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

Shontelle - Impossibe

Amity

1 week since he left me crying in a hotel parking lot. 1 week since i got my heart broken for the first time. 1 week since i dropped to my knees infront of my bathtub and surronded my self with numerous amounts of bottles.

I felt my body jerk as Abi tugged at my arm, making my body slide slightly on the cold bathroom floor. "Girl you need to get out, You have been laying here for a while now." I rolled my eyes, staring at the side of the tub, "Alright whatever Amity, Im done trying with you. I have to go to work." I heard her footsteps fade and soon heard a door slam.

"Come on Amity, You can do it." I whispered to myself and pushed myself off of the floor, My legs wabbled from the sudden pressure of all my bodys weight. My minds swirled with thoughts and wishes as I changed my clothes,after taking a long awaited shower. I wish he would come back to me. I found everything hard to understand, i had never beed depressed before, It is all so new. I glided my feet across the floor and hesitantly opened the door to the outside worlds. Busy and bright as ever, i stepped out into the streets. Everyone around me were blurs, until my weaker leg made me shift and BAM. arms were around me in a milasecond.

"Woah, Cutie are you okay." I opened my eyes to see icy blue eyes that i somewhat recognized.

I put my head on my forehead and put my other one up, "Yeah im okay, Im really sorry."

He shook his head, furrowing his eyebrows, "No problem, would you like to take a walk with me?"

"Amity." I nodded my head walking meside him. My mind flashed back to two weeks ago when i was walking this same path with Justin.

"Hi Amity, Im Brayden." I gave a weak smiled and watched my feet hit the ground. I glanced over at his wishing they were those same baby blue shoes Justin loved. But they weren't. I could here him talking to me but it went in one ear and out the other.

He stopped walking suddenly and i looked over to the building we were infront of, my breath caught The damn coffee shop. "Is this where you were walking to?"

"Uhh yeah, Care to come inside and get some coffee with me?" I nodded, Taking a deep breath when i took my first step inside, and their it was. That little flashback of looking up into his eyes for the second time. The first time i caught myself from falling. His voice blocked out again, until my ears opened up for on little piece of information," Listen I have to get to work, But do you think you could Pulse tonight and maybe have a drink with me?"

"Yeahs sure, It was nice meeting you." He smiled and i gave a bright one back.

"Oh I forgot, heres my number." He bent over writing it on a napkin and i took it putting it in my front pocket.

I sat their for a few more moments, until i felt my phone vibrating in my back pocket, my heart stopped at the number and i sat it down on the table watching as it gared with his number until, it finally stopped. I slid out of the booth, putting my phone into my backpocket, I felt it vibrate one more time telling me i had a voicemail.

So this one is wicked short and massivley boring but i gotta go so this is basicall the metting of Amity and Brayden whom will be gone very shortly since he is a ***** hahaha jk but anyways review (: I know sooooooooo SHORT

OMJ JUSTIN CALLED HER!!...and i hope that guy wit the blue eyes isnt the guy from the club that almost...well i dont wana say the word but yea lol cant wait 4 more =)

awww that was sooo awesome :] i cant wait untill the next chapters outttt...POOOOOSTTT IT NOOOWW~

Look at all the damage that you've already done
got me singing the blues, actin foolish when you were gone
psychotic, neurotic, boy i'm crazy as hell
how'd you do it? it's like i'm drugged, tired of under your spell

now i know i know i know i know
i should know better.
i should know better.

Kesha - Hearts on fire

Amity

Everything was a blur soon after i got into the club. All of the bright lights and sparkels on the floor, the people glided over them so fast.

"Are you okay?" He was smiling at me like he already knew. I had only taken one sip and everything already seem outta wack. I looked down at my drink to see a little fizz demolishing at the bottom. Date rape drug. "Where you going?" He reached for my arm and evey word he said echoed like i was passing out.

"No!" I took off into the sea of people, my head swaying not knowing what i was trying to do. I was in an alley now, all i could see was darkness and his bodies outling following me slowly behind. Their was a sudden boom of laughter that bounced swiftly off of the hard brick walls. "Braydennn Stop!" He threw his head back laughing more as i tried pulling his hands from cupping my waist.

"Where do you think your goin little girl?" I could feel his breath on my ear and he kissed slowy at my neck.

"Wh-what is this?" I pushed myseld of the brick wall, swaying to the other one.

"Well, You were so easy." He moved closer grabbing my hand, "Your little heatrbreak with Justin, I knew you would be so willing to do anything." He pushed my frontside against the wall tugging at my pants and breathing hitched as he slammed my head into the wall. "I think yourgonna give me what i want." I could hear the smile in his voice as my bottom lip wobbled

"St-stop, i don't know why im here." I felt hot tears slide as he pushed me down to the cold concrete floor and heard his pants unbutton. "Jusssttinn!" I sobbed loudly as he tugged on my pants more begging to get them undone. I could feel his weight hovering over me, then i was pushed forward harshly, before all weight disappeared completely. I waited to feel him yank everything off of me, I was to ****ed to fight back. I figured maybe i could just scream and someone would take notice. I guessed someone did taking that I looked over to see gim being held against the wall by a very large man.

I could hear the sirens coming closer and little words being spoken angryly. The grip on me was gentle and loving, but my eyes were so heavy they wouldn't open. My body wouldn't move to show and sign of even being alive, except for my heavy breathing. My body was in such shock it wouldn't even shake. I let out a whimper as I squinted my eyes and watched Brayden being dragged away buy three men and pushed into the backseat of a cop car.

"Amity, It's okay." the drug had taken full affect and my body went limp, "It's okay I love you, you know that, Im so sorry, im so so sorry Babygirl." thats all i heard when everything went black, all ecept for those colorful little words bouncing in my head, swirling like they were all that mattered. Nothing go into my head after all this except for his voice singing to me lightly, like an angel.
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I opened my eyes slowly, I glanced around the room. It was bright white, but it wasn't a hospital room. I could hear a loudnoise coming from the bathroom and i didnt hesitate to get up and see what it was.

"Hello." I gripped my head as my own voice found its way back into my ears. The noise stopped sunddenly and i heard the cracking of the bathroom door as i neared. Maybe brayden brought me back here and let me stay. I didn't remember anything after taking a sip of my drink, and now i was in a random hotel room, with clothes on that i didn't recognize.

"Hey Girl, How are you feeling? Are you okay?" It was Pattie gripping my face, standing their with all her beauty, hugging me, and treating me as if i were her own.

"What are you talking about?" Her eyes filled with sadness and tears fell over her eye rims.

"Honey, sit down." I did as the said, noticing she intentionally gided me away from all mirrors, "Last night something happend, Someone spiked your drink with a drug, and..."

I tugged at my hair, my eyes widening, "What? What happened to me whats wrong." I got up turning to the mirror and sobbed at the huge welp on my fire head and busted lip.

"You were raped." I dropped to my knees screaming a cry and heard the hotel room door open,"Why?" I felt someones arms wrap around me and i screamed pushing them away.

"Amity, Stop please!" Justin had tears falling as well as he tripped backwards slightly, and i curled against the wall.

"No, why are you here? Why am i here? you can't do this." He kneeled infront of me flipping his hair to look me in my swollen eyes, "I had just gotten over everything and now you just had to come back."

He nodded, "I know and Im sorry, im sooo so sorrry!" He took my arms pulling me onto his lap, "I need time to realize that i am here to make you happy, and I never started hurting you until I left you, and I shouldv'e knowen better."

"What happened to the guy?" I paused sighing and letting more tears fall, "More importantly who was the guy?"

"His name is Brayden and he is in jail now For raping you." I sniffled and looked away from him and i could feel my body tremer, he cupped my face forcing me to look at him, "He isn't gonna hurt you again, Im gonna take you far, far away from here and you won't be back for a while...okay?" I nodded my head at him and he leaned in and kissed my busted forehead.

"What ab-" He stopped me before I could ask anymore.

"She will be fine, you will be fine, and I won't take no for an answer," He pulled me closer huggin my tightly, "I love you."

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Alright the chap is done lol Tell me what you thing (: I know short again but lastngiht was crazy please review and thank you for the knew readers, Im glad you apreciate someone finally writing a Justin Bieber fanfic (: LOVE YOU GUYSSSSS
If you are offended by anything like this i apologize, If you have had to experience something like this is just awful, This is not ment to break into bad memories MUCH LOVE (:
BTW The knew Nightmare on Elm Street is wicked crazy i screamed sooo go see it

OMGZZ EPIC~ haha i feel greedy for asking this but MOOOORE PLEAZE???

Baby girl, I'm a blur
I spoiled, stunted, sickened her.
God and Death are none of my concern
No, philosopher.
Deep in your heart, stitched the key
And only one can set me free from the beast
where I dwell and let the saints all burn in hell.

We fall right down
We get back up again
thats how we be
you and me
I would not crowd,
I would not smother you
I'd let you breathe, over me

Amity



It was just one of those days, Where we layed around. Not talking, just breathing and occasionally staring until he fell asleep. Everything to me is still a blur, How he found me, How I was raped. My mine finally snapped to my phone, He had called, and afterwards he had left a voicemail, I never got around to hear it.



I softly got out of the bed, It was late afternoon so the sun gleamed through the windows. I cursed as I searched my purse for my missing phone until I found it in a pocket. The new voicemail message was still on the screen and i waited patiently for it to play back to me.



"He-hey Amity? Uhmm I know it's been a while and I know i hurt you so much, but i've realized a few things. The first day we met was supposed to happen, your supposed to be mine. Abianna said all you do is lay their and stare at nothing, I-im comin back for you...If you get scared after hearing this and run off..Im gonna find you because I need you. Not knowing who I am without you isn't working out for me so well..."



It ended.



This is the part where all these questions sworm my head. What if I had answered his call? What if i had never met him in the first place? What is it about me that made him chase me, even after i *****ed and moaned?



I jumped when i heard him yawn and saw him stretch his arms in the air out of the corner of my eye, "Amityyyy what are you doing?"



I smiled, dropping my phone into my person, and ran to the bed, jumping into his arms, "Let's talk." He rubbed his face and rolled onto his side in the bed.



"Uhh okay.." His voice was unsure and I began my questions.



"What made you chase after me the day we met?" His eyebrows rose and he smiled, thinking back to that day.



"Uhh well..You were just different, I could tell." He lifted up, resting his weight on his hands, "The way you stared back for a little bit, but rolled your eyes and walked away...It just caught be off guard, I loved it." I smiled and tapped my chin thinking of more questions.



"How did you find me the other night?" he sighed, wrapping his arms around me and layed back down on the pillow.



"I told you whenever you needed me, I would be their." I rolled out of his arms, propping myself on my elbows, "I just felt something was wrong, It's like i heard you calling for me."



"How do you know I called for you?" He rolled his eyes at me, doing somthing weird with his mouth.



"You did Amity, You wouldn't stop saying my name even when I was holding you." I made an 'O' With my mouth and thought more.



"How do you think your life would be if you had never met me." He clicked his mouth and looked at me shaking his head, like I was stupid.



"The way it was before I met you," I nodded, and he gave a chuckle, "Yeah but im glad I did meet you, Amity."



"Yeah me too." I stood up on the bed smiling at him as I did.



"What are you doing?" He backed up against the headboard a little, his eyes growing wide.



I started moving my legs, before saying in my best 5 year old voice, "Jumping!" He closed his eyes, shaking his head, while placing his mouth in a thin line.



"You have definatley let me in..." I stopped jumping and ****ed my head to the side, staring at him questioningly.



"What?" He opened his eyes, a smile opening up his mouth.



"You've let me in, you don't act bitter towards me, And you finally act the way you want to towards me, Have you noticed that?" I jumped on more time and didn't catch myself with my legs, but landed on my bottom, "You finally listening to what your heart is saying, Instead of what your little mind is saying." He poked my temple, giving out the cutest laugh.



"Yeah, well im glad I am showing you something knew about myself and being open towards you, And you have been open from the start!" I threw my hands in the air before crossing my arms with a huff.



"It's because I have always trusted you." I scrunched my face at him, running one of my hands through my hair.



"Aww why?" He laughed at me and flipped his still perfect hair to the side, so he could look at me.



"I don't know...I just have.." His face looked like he was thinking hard,but it demolished when a knock rung through the door.



"Ill get itttt!" I don't know why I was being so upbeat and happy, Maybe it's to hide the pain or Start my new beginning.



I skipped to the door, opening it swiftly, before pouncing on the person on the other side, "MIKE!" He let out his deep laugh before gently pushing me away.

"You two come on and pack your things, we are leaving in two hours." I nedded and closed the door turning to Justin, Who had his face barried in his hands.

"What's wrong?" I gave him a sad face and he lifted his face up and smiled once more."

"Nothen Babygirl, You just got me a blur."

“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment.” - Henry David Thoreau (:

Baby tell me that you want me, want me
Baby tell me that you need me
'Cause you know I'm onto you
Keep it on the low I'll be waitin for you
Baby c'mon let me show you
Show you what I can do
I can make it all come true cause I'm onto you
Keep it on the low I'll be waitin for you

Malese jow - Redlgiht

Amity



This was the first time I had ever seen Justin like this, Dancing and pulling me towards him. He never let me go, It was like he wanted me that bad and evertyime we looked at eachother our breathing would hitch and he would pull me closer.



"Justin, Man come here I need to talk to you." Damn Drake, At the best moment. I shivered as Justin and I werent makking enough body heat anymore to keep me warm, He noticed and handed me his jacket.



"Alright, One second." Justin nodded his head and turned back to me, and let one of those beautiful smiles creep on to his face.



"Ugh, Go!" He chuckled and kissed my cheek before disappearing in the mix of dancing people. I sat down at one of the nearest round tables and covered myself with Justins jacket. I was soon snapped from my thoughts when Justins jacket started vibrating, I didn't pay attention to who was calling I just answered the phone.



"Hello?" I heard a giggle in the end, "Who is this?" I heard a little gasp at the end.



"Baby...? What!? Who is this?" The person had a snobby sense in their voice and I already knew who it was, "Ohh wait Amity?..Right?" She sounded amused and i breathed hard.



"Yeah." I licked my lips and glanced around and saw Justin hug Drake, He nondded and started walking towards me across the dancefloor.



"What are you doing?" I shook my head, scrunching my forehead confused.



"What do you mean Jasmine?" She laughed and I was tempted to hang up as Justin got closer.



"Hanging around Justin all the time." I ****ed my head to the side and listened harder,"Leave him alone, He has me and his work. He doesn't need someone like you, So just walk out of his life right now and never come back." I could here the smile in her voice as i snapped the phone shut. No tears fell. I was dry, my mouth, my eyes, and my once sweaty palms were all dry. I was numb.



I glanced at Justin he had stopped to talk to Usher on he dancefloor, I saw Justin look over at me and right as he did i swiftly got up and walked away. I pushed my way through the dancing people as I did many times before when i chickened out of this relationship and listened to the people around me telling me to leave. I looked back and saw Justin looking for me with a confused look, I was tempted to walk back and forget the whole thing, but i couldn't.



"Do you remember me?" In one swift movement he was infront of me holind my hips, Blue eyes, Blonde hair. He brought his face to mine and i could feel the heat of his breth radiatin on off of my face.



"Of course." I backed my face a little bit, trying to look away but he held my face.



"Are you scared?" I shook my head 'no' I didn't really remember him, everything he did to me never crossed my mind. He nodded and sawyed my hips with his and kissed me. He didn't seem like he wanted to hurt me at all, He seemed sweet and subtle. He pulled away and laid his forehead agains mine, my eyes snapped open when he laughed. That was all I needed to realize how stupid this was and much **** I had just gotten myself into.



"What the ****?" The corners ofmy eyes had tears thretening to fall and Justin looked angrier than I had eve seen. Justin Took his hand and softly pushed me backwards as he raised his hand and punched whom I remembered to be Brayden.



"STOP!" I screamed at Brayden punched Justin in his face and they continued, beating eachother until Mike and drake appeared between them.



"No, im fine." Justin shook his head giving me a death glare as he walked past me and to outside. I followed him, the conversation I had with Jasmine was still in my mind.



"Just-" He pushed me away and whiped the blood coming out of his mouth, a bruise was alraedy forming on his left cheek.



"What the **** is wrong with you?" I stpped backwards and raised my nose to the air.



"What's wrong with me?" I shook my head, and bit my bottom li," You. With you 'Oh im not Datin Jasmine' Bull****."



"Okay what the hell are you talking about?" We were now walking beside eachother towards the hotel, this time we were all alone.



"Jasmine called you, she wasnted me to tell you, 'Hey baby, she loves you.'"I gave a fake smile and punched him with all my strength in the arm.



Heyelped and shoved me a little, so I stumbbled from my walking pace,and he growled loudly, "Gosh damn do you always have to listen to everyone? She is a ***** Amity." I rolled my eyes and shoved him back, He grabbed my arm pushing me backwards so I hit the wall as he kept walking. I quickly got right beside him and hekd my arms crossed tightly against me. "Shes jealous of you 'cuz you got me- Ane give me that!" He yanked the jacket that was keeping me warm from my arms.



"Hey im cold!" I sighed as the cold breeze hit my arms and I shivered.



He glared at me and rolled his eyes, "Hey! Well I don't care right now." I stopped and my head flinched backwards, It stung. I turned on my heels and walked the opposite way of him and I heard the gravel crumple as he stopped and looked at me. "Alright...well don't think im chasing after you."



"**** you!" I flipped him the bird and kept my eyes on the end of the road.



"Yeah I bet you would like that, wouldn't you?" I rolled my eyes, why is he still talking? "Gosh damnit, Amity." I heard his feet slapping the ground and a cold air whooshed past me as he stopped beside me.



He grabbed my arm and turned me towards him, his hands burned into my skin, "Will you just stop?"



"What happened to not chasing after me?" I puckered my lips and raised my eyebrow. He rolled his eyes and through his hands, walking back in the direction he was.



"Im done Amity." My chest hurt and my hands started tingling, it brought back a feeling that I hated very badly. "Amity?" He stopped and tuned towards me, his ****ing a little bit, "Amity are you okay?" I kept my eyes on his face because that was te last thing my eyes remembered being on, as i breathed my lungs sounded hollow because they weren't getting enough air. " Your Hyperventilating." Yeah nice one, I knew that. He sat beside me and wrapped me in his arms, "I need you to calm down for me Amity, I think everything is hitting you now."



He was right. The day Justin left, The night brayden beat me, and Now Justin saying he was done was the cherry on top. Justin had broke all four of my walls down and made me feel. Justin rubbing circles in my right shoulder had calmed me down, he noticed and grabbed my hand.



"Im okay now." He nodded and pulled me off the ground.



He smiled and hugged me ,"Okay good. We are going to have a long talk with Jasmine when we get to the hotel." A nodde a sniffled a little.



"Your not really done...are you?" He took his jacket off and placed it over my shoulders.



"No im not done, I don't think I can ever be done with you." He tucked a piece of hair behind my ear, "It just pisses me off that i care about you so much to get my cheek busted."

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So yeah...sorry I havent posted in a while but, ALOT as happened this month i mean ALOTTTTTT! Just ask Bridgette lol (: that my twitter friend.

OH AND YOU GUYS SHOULD FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER, CUZ GUESS WHO IS? JUSTIN BIEBER!!!!!! NO JOKE HE REALLY IS, I HAD A HOUR LONG SCREAMING FIT, NOW ALL I NEED IS A REPLY LOL @AUTUMN_MARIE_ <<<

Oh and that song up their is so good you should listen to it and her shes good to lol

BTW the upcoming chapters will definatley be more happy, We are now going to go through Amity and Justins life (: yesss

I don't think im gonna update on this site..yah know since noone wants to review or anything what is the point?

Marie, I think you should continue updating the fanfic that you made. I really loved it. So i hope you'll finish it.

I really love this chapter. So awesome